Life is very hard for me help me?

If you're doing what you can to defeat such a government then all you can do is keep going. Doing something groundbreaking and good requires a spirit of self sacrifice sometimes. When its you that matters then you are weak and flawed but when the work matters so much that you simply become the work then you can run a million miles on foot in ten days without sleep and not be tired. I am speaking figuratively here of course. I'm saying let the work motivate you if it's important enough. If you need to be motivated by something else to do the work then the work is not important.